Everyone's living in this peaceful world. So much so that they've been so accustomed to it. To them, there're just... living in this world. Getting into small fights over ego. Putting self first. What is friendship? It's just so easily broken. When cracks appear, people will just give up. That's the resolve this generation has. That's the spirit, that's their commitment... their "I will not stay till the end" rule. No honor, no self-sacrifice...


It might have been better if the world is embrioled in anarchy. Gangsterism and no-rules era would suffice. These people will then know the hardships. Maybe we're here in Singapore, a tiny island that is so 'secure' that everyone's life is not threathened. In other words, pampered. They don't know how important the people around them are... to them, friends are just people walking by the street... it's just to know once, and walk away... brothers-in-arms? Extremely rare.


Or maybe I'm just too outdated. Maybe there isn't such things like them anymore. These beliefs I hold, I will protect. Even when people around me break their oaths... that is my resolve. These answers will just be known in death... as at moment of death, decisions from your life's experiences can be made.


But I really wonder... why my resolve for the past months dropped... maybe personally, I've became more lazy and harbour selfish thoughts. It's really human to do so though... but at least I've found out now. I've to work rebuilding my resolve now... I won't give up easily... thanks Faisal, for letting me know that I'm actually acting like that.


Now just a little more dose of discipline...